All Alone

I have been part of a couple and family for such a long time that being all alone is a strange and very foreign concept.

Especially, being an adult all alone, I was 17 when I met my husband, at 27, I am a grown-up, but all alone I feel like a kid again and not in the good way.  As a mom, usually a five minute break is peaceful and enough restorative time that I am ready to interact or hang out. And, let me tell you, to go from having kids and a husband to come home to each day, while sometimes exhausting, is very different from coming home to be an adult alone.

What does an adult do when they have all this time to just exist? I have found myself actually picking up my socks from the floor or putting away dishes, and to top of the list sleeping.  It is very concerning to go into a room that I have lived in for a week and find not one mess, and even when I have “accidentally” thrown things around, I annoyingly keep picking it up while I search for things to do.

Now, my husband and I are not having any issues, or things like that, we just bought a house that is too far away from where I work to travel each day, so I am forced to be away.  When we first came up with this idea being “single” for 6 months sounded cool and exciting, after all it had been 10 years.

I was wrong.

This is not cool or exciting. In fact, it is depressing and even an entire bag of fruit flavored tootsie rolls can’t change that (it just causes a massive sugar-induced stomachache I have discovered).

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6 Comments on “All Alone”

  1. Jess Says:

    If you feel the urge to clean…make your way over. I will supply you with beer and Kool-aid. That is about all we have. OH! And Chef Boyardee!

    • jennieology Says:

      I may have to take you up on the beer and kool-aid, all I do is eat when I am depressed and pretty soon my in-laws may be out food.

  2. Kori Says:

    As much as I might feel like I need a break at times, that doesn’t sounds at all fun to me, either. I hope the time goes by very, very quickly for all of you.

    • jennieology Says:

      It hasn’t been, so I have put myself on a reward system. Each day that I survive I get to do something fun or new. It’s like being one of my own students.

  3. And for my part, I hope you will continue these newfound “picking-up-after-yourself” skills even after we’re reunited.

    Buck up, champ, and enjoy your freedom! We could always trade “custody” of the kids…

  4. Momo Fali Says:

    I always say that I would love to have the house to myself. Then my husband takes the kids to the movies and within five minutes I miss everyone.

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